Monday, January 29, 2007

Buddhist Boot Camp

"It is a serenity born of concentration and pain--torture meets bliss."
- Taken from Yoga Bums by Rebecca Mead

In Zen Buddhism there is a ritual called tangariro. In the words of Gil Fronsdahl, “it sort of resembles a hazing.” In the Zen tradition, only the most serious and dedicated practitioners are wanted in the monastery. In order to be accepted in the monastic community, a practitioner must first prove how dedicated they are to their practice, and tangariro is proverbial gauntlet.

The ritual begins with the practitioner being given a robe that they wear for the duration of the process. The practitioner does not know how this process will last, but traditionally tangariro lasts 7 to 14 days. So, you put on your robe, you are escorted into a room, where you sit in meditation, facing the wall in full lotus position. From 4 in the morning until 9 at night, the practitioner sits in meditation without moving for three to four hours at a time. Their meals are brought to them, and they are provided 30 minutes to take care of personal needs after meals. On top of it, every few hours or so a monk will walk into the room with a stick and whack a random practitioner.

Now usually when I think of Zen Buddhism, I think of monks walking through pristine gardens with cherry blossoms floating in a soft breeze. The practice of tangariro seems to be the very antithesis of this image, but the more that I think about tangariro, the more it makes sense.

The whole purpose of Buddhism is to eliminate suffering from one’s life. If a person’s serious about this they are going to have to go through some potentially uncomfortable and unpleasant experiences in order to develop enough concentration and awareness to be present irregardless of the circumstances. From my perspective, being in the moment when you are in a great deal of pain is the ultimate acid test.

This point was hammered home this weekend. I met with my swim coach, went over some goals we agreed upon, then reviewed the workout for the day. The interval on the set was pretty generous, but the distance was double the amount that I was used to. I voiced my opinion that the length of the set would contribute to much more pain than I prepared for, and that my stroke would fall apart at the seams. He looked me dead in the eye and said, “That’s the whole point of this workout: to force you to hold your stroke together when you are in pain.”

Those words changed my perspective. I did the workout, fell apart at the seams, but realized that the real dance of any medium is to be able to handle the most challenging tasks with focus and presence.

Namaste

Monday, January 15, 2007

PR

"Do not bother just to be better than your contemporaries or predecessors. Try to be better than yourself."
- William Faulkner

"Every victory has it's price. How much are you willing to pay?
Answer: $90 per month."
- found on the workout board at Brophy East Sports Campus

Yesterday I competed in the PF Chang's Rock 'n Roll 1/2 Marathon. What was slated to be a full marathon got cut back to a 1/2 due to nagging injuries that wouldn't go away. I've completed a full marathon before, know I can do it again, but needed to bow out. I'll break the 4 Hour Barrier at some other point in time, just not in this race.

The 1/2 went pretty well. The first four miles were run at about a 9 minute mile--miles 1 thorugh 4 were really well marked for time. This was the "Oh shit!" moment of the race. At mile 5 I significantly increased the paced and was running well below an 8 minute mile--I tried to do the splits in my head but simple division gets much harded with increased fatigue--and held this all the way to mile 10. This is where I usually have another "gear" to go to, but it just wasn't there. So, miles 10 through 13 were run at about the same pace as miles 5 through 9, but it just hurt more to hold that pace. The last .10 mile was an all out sprint. Race time: 1:43:06--a new personal record for the 1/2 marathon.

It felt really great to go out there and compete yesterday. Looking back on the race, I could have shaved about 2 minutes off my final time if I had set my watch when the gun went off, but that's about it. I was exhausted when I crossed the finish line, and my exhaustion was confirmed again today when I woke up at 1 PM, and couldn't walk without making odd noises indicative of pain.

It was last year at this time that I got the idea to create this blog. A family member had set-up a family page on yahoo.com, and I was pretty much the only person who was posting stuff consistently. This got pretty old after about a week. If nobody was going to contribute stuff, that I might as well go off the reservation and start my own thing. I am glad that I have.

Not much else going on. I'm really excited to go back to work tomorrow. Sounds kinda corny, but I am. Lots of good learning to do.

Namaste